Promise

You've made me cry.
You've made me scream.
You've made me pissed.
You've made me panic.
All these things, well, they really suck.
But you know what? That's okay.
Because you've made me laugh.
You've made me sing.
You've made me giddy.
You've made me dance.
And, really, all those are great.
So I'd like to stay like this
and it'd be great if you, y'know, stayed.
But if you have to...well...okay.
But promise you'll write.
Promise you'll come back.
Promise you won't forget me or replace me with someone stronger.
Promise we can still be as close as we are.
Promise you'll only break that promise if we're getting closer.
Promise you won't hate me if (when) I don't answer your calls because I hate the phone.
Promise you won't laugh if I start freaking out at the awkward silences.
If you promise all that, I promise I'll keep on missing you.
I promise I won't send you a message every day (...maybe).
I promise I'll answer your calls and only hang up if I'm seizing from pure awkwardness.
I promise I won't try to get closer by prying and promise to break that promise if you want me to.
I promise to try to not think of you every minute, promise to try not to live my life waiting for you.
I promise to move on (eventually) and I promise to be a supporting friend if you ever change your mind and my heart's someone else's (unlikely, but just in case).
I promise I'll be there for you like you've been there for me.
I promise not to be too giddy if you choose to trust me with some secret.
I promise to keep as many promises as I can and make more if it means you keep yours. Or you're happy. Whichever applies.
I promise that someday I'll be okay, if you ever worry.
I promise to give you a really freaking big hug when I eventually see you and I expect you to do the same.
You're awesome and I really hope you read this someday.
Imagine there's a heart at the end of that sentence because this thing hates me and won't lemme put one, okay? Okay.